Katrina Armijo I feel like I’m reaching the breaking point of staying at home with two toddlers needing my constant attention. I also feel like the world’s worst mom. Motherhood is an ultimate test right now and far from perfectly charming. Let’s be honest, is it ever perfect? Short answer…NO!
Shouldn’t I enjoy this moment and be glad that I’m literally spending every single moment with them? This is the ongoing battle I’m facing in my mind. Part of me feels guilty for wanting a break from them when the other part is thankful I’m getting all this time with my kids.
I know. I’m literally a walking contradiction with my thoughts of working from home with my little ones.
But if I’m being honest, moms need a break and time to themselves to keep their sanity. I was doing just fine with the whole work from home during this whole global pandemic up until this past week. I feel like my kids have been bitten by the tantrum bug. Every little thing can set my daughter off and my son is like a little tornado.
I know he’s a ball of energy and she’s transitioning into the all too familiar terrible twos, but sheesh LIFE IS HECTIC! I broke down and started crying at one point this week. I just wanted them to chill out and relax. Thank goodness my husband is home to help tag team parenting and working from home. We’re literally taking shifts to entertain our kids and get our own work finished.
These moments will pass. In fact, the moment of being a work from home mom is ending this upcoming week. My job is slowly transitioning and expecting all of us employees to make our way back to working from our office. Luckily, my supervisor said she’ll allow us to work from home for the month of June on a part time basis. I’m planning on working from home Thursday and Friday.
I know I’m exhausted now from the constant need of attention from my two little ones, but one day they’ll be self sufficient and I’ll miss that constant dependability for mom. When I’m starting to feel stressed out and worried that I’m not going to break over these next couple of days, I’ll remember all the good times this quarantine has brought into our home.
I’ve been able to watch my children wake up peacefully and cook them a big breakfast meal.
I’ve been able to cuddle with them and watch their favorite movie.
I’ve been able to chase throughout the halls in a game of tag.
I’ve been able to let them play outside and get dirty without a care in the world because i knew a bubble bath would be waiting for them.
I was able to spend an entire birthday with both of them on their special day.
These little treasures are what helps me smile through this whole thing. Although my time in a work from home environment is changing, I’ll have the memories I created with them to last a lifetime.
Yes, I’m exhausted but I’m truly blessed to have the duty of mom to get me through the day.
